looking for a good sherpa

i have a theory and it is mine.

and it is this: when the large hadron collider in geneva was finally turned on, instead of creating a wormhole that would suck all of us into oblivion, it had instead sped up time several fold. it would explain why days are flying by and time is getting away from everybody.

it's a stupid theory, i know, not to mention incredibly geeky, but it's one that i'm willing to entertain. lately it seems my life is on a fast-forward course. i wake up on monday, have lunch and it's wednesday, dinner is friday, and when sleep is nigh it's sunday. doesn't yours feel this way?

last month when i became one of the new presenters for a local community tv show, i finally realised a dream i first toyed with in high school. the idea of being on television seemed like a far-fetched idea back then and if anybody had told me that years later i would so stiffly and scarily front up the cameras, i'd told them to pull the other one and get back to doing my homework.

the thing about attaining something so long-aspired and one that seemed initially unattainable is that reality proves a heck of a lot different from those rose-tinted dreams. there's work to be done and not just looking glamorous on screen. in the past few weeks, my time had been taken up by various tasks that included research, scripting, rehearsals and filming. this on top of my other duties of being a scribe, an on-air broadcaster, not to mention, my day job of being an ass-whipper and door bitch. it's been days since i've had any decent sleep.

my family has taken to texting me to see if i'll be home as well as leave notes to pass on on the kitchen whiteboard. last weekend, my dad was apparently heard to say out loud over lunch that he's missed me. that's huge for a man who doesn't usually verbalise any kind of emotion.

you're probably rolling your eyes now as i make mountains out of molehills, but this feeling of being hurried and sense of disconnectedness is, right now, my looming everest.

i'm guessing i'm not alone in needing to scale it.